Current mood:depressed Why do I fall apart and keep screaming (in my head) "I can't do this anymore!!" when I know darn well I am going to keep right on doing it. Why do I fall apart? I know every day I will get up and get mom up and take Harriett to her appointments and buy her meds and try to be here for my husband and children.... and then, after a period of time I will fall apart again and scream that I just can't do this any more. I hate my life right now. I want to go back to when my kids were small and everyone lived close by and I was so much less judgemental. I want to start over. I want this to go away.