As I wandered through the vastness known as my mind, I came upon another little curious thought:
Just an itty bitty bit of 'bad' can overwhelm a whole lotta 'good.'
Why is that?
A truly loving relationship can never be about competition. How can you say, "X number of people love me more, therefore I must be better loved than you"? And if it is said, what would it really mean? A loving relationship, man/woman, parent/child, friend/friend, human/pet, human/God or same sex love is about the love you give and your ability to receive it. If you can't accept love, how can you be truly loved?
It is possible to love the unloveable, but can the unloveable love back? If you kick your dog she comes back to you. But if you continue to kick your dog you obviously don't have the ability to return love. Your dog's love is real, but your ability to receive it is not, and you are not able to love back when you can't feel love. If your heart is not open to let love in, how can love flow out?
Love and be loved is the key to happiness. There is no accounting in relationships. Put the abacus away and simply open your heart.
I am so very lucky to be the mom of two incredible daughters. I simply cannot imagine my life without them. They keep my young, laughing, and always on my toes. They are the very best of the best.
Today is my tribute to Alyssa. She's my oldest. She's such a bright person and very aware and sensitive to others. She's been there for me whenever I need a shoulder. I can't say that's my proudest thing, because I am not sure kids are supposed to be so strong for their parents, when that is the parental role for the child. But she is very attuned to me and knows when I need my hugs.
Alyssa is an adult. Such a hard milestone for a parent to accept. She makes her own decisions and sometimes I don't agree with them but I try very hard to support them. Even more, I want to support her dreams and see her do and become everything that is important to her.
My mom is becoming more difficult to care for daily. When I needed to go to Cincy for a week, Alyssa offered to take an unpaid week off work to assist with her care. She has had a wonderful attitude despite how difficult it is. I am so proud of how she has stepped up to the plate and really accepted responsibility in this. It's not been a pleasant situation.
Alyssa, I want you to know how very much appreciated you are. This is a tough time in my life, seeing my mother deteriorate and slip away from us. No matter what our past has been, my Mom is my Mom and I love her dearly. What you are doing for her, and therefore me... well, I can't express it in words what it means to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You are so wonderful!!
I forgot to mention that she has some other things happening in her life that are not mine to discuss... but they make me soooo proud!! You rock girl!!